Carpe diem

    George S. Patton once said, "It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived." I am just going to start by saying that I do not have any regrets so far, and yet again, saying that would not be entirely true. I always had to struggle with the idea of not having the things I wanted to do done and not caring too much for the things I have done without being fully aware of the consequences. My actions prompted me to engage in the strangest most different things that would only put me in the position of wanting to do even more.
     Truth be told, I don't fear the idea of dying, for I believe that death itself only means another way for us to continue our way of being, so to speak. I highly believe that life should be lived at its fullest. As mentioned before, I don't fear death but I do fear the idea of dying before I have done everything I have ever wanted to do. The confusing part of it all is the fact that I don't have my whole life planned out and for all I know, I haven't figured out who I am either. So to have the audacity to say that my hourglass' sand has run out would only make me want to flip it and start over.
     Thinking of what I would do before my time would finally be at its end only makes me go on trips down memory lane. Isn't that what they say? That right before you die you  have a flashback which revolves around mainly everything you have ever lived that made an impact on your life. I can't help but wonder whether or not I have accomplished enough until this exact moment let alone will I know if I did in my final ones.

      Rain, yes, rain! I would stay in that peaceful outburst of neat raindrops and just let loose, that's if, of course, my health would let it happen. I would probably sing on a big stage in front of thousands of people if I would not be unknown and maybe, just maybe make myself some time to visit all of the worth remembering places. I would swim into a golden sea while staring at a cerulean painting of the sky because looking at the sky itself would be too mainstream for both me and my technology-dependent generation. I would probably redo every single thing I have done not caring about how much money it would take or I would perhaps be too poor to even have that opportunity. 
      Needless to say, I would do everything that I desire but this idea has its imperfections. I'm well aware of what I would do if I were to die right now but that happens only because by the time you have finished reading this sentence, that "right now" part would have already made some room in your past. You see, it's easy to say what you would or would not do but having to know that you are not going to die by the time you have finished reading this so called "essay" of mine really helps out. Imagine having to do one last thing realizing that by the end of it your soul would already have left your body and your body would already have become a corpse. 
      I am not certain of what I would do before I die and to be completely honest I don't even want to think it through. There's something I know for sure, I do want to be remembered after I stop being a part of this world and undoubtedly I would not want to be mourned over. 
      To sum up, I really have no clue of what I would do. Let's just say that as spontaneous as I like to consider myself I'm just going to have a huge surprise and let this thought of mine be for now. If I have come to a conclusion out of this it's the fact that I am pretty sure I wouldn't want for that moment to catch me off-guard while writing this essay. As for my advice to you? Carpe diem!